Quitting the Scale6:46 AM
When I was at my lowest point, I was weighing myself obsessively multiple times a day. The number on the scale had so much influence on my self esteem day to day, and it was awful. I felt that I had to be a certain weight -either lower than or the same as the previous day- before going to bed each night. I would wear extra layers when I ran so that I would sweat more. Even though I knew that water weight didn't count as real weight, I wanted it out. The pressure I was putting on myself- and the failure I felt if that number crept up- was completely out of hand.
One of the first things my husband did when I started my journey was hide the scales. Weighing myself was a huge trigger for me. He put them out of sight and out of reach, and I finally started to let go of my need to know exactly how much I weighed all day, every day.
The conclusion I reached was that I needed to eat a healthy and nutritious diet with enough calories in it, exercise regularly, and wherever that left my body was where I was meant to be. It sounds so simple, right? I almost felt guilty letting go of that need, but it has proved to be one of the most liberating things I could ever do. I don't force myself onto the scale time and time again daily (I only weigh myself now every few weeks to a month to keep myself in check) and I love it.
If that silly little number is making you crazy, I highly recommend stepping off the scale and tracking your weight by the way you feel, your energy levels, and the way your clothes fit. I promise you that if you're for real eating healthy and exercising enough, your body will find its "happy place".
My tips for quitting the scale:
-Put it up and out of reach- out of sight, out of mind!
-Use a calorie tracking tool so you know how much you should be eating per day. I'm sure I'm much more regimented about calorie counting than most people need to be, but recovering from an eating disorder is definitely a process, and knowing what is going in is huge for me mentally. If you're keeping track of what you're eating, there's no need to weigh yourself.
-Monitor yourself by the way your clothes fit. I can always tell if I need to shape up a little bit when my pants start fitting just a touch differently. It doesn't take much to get right back on track.
-Don't live your life in diet mode. Find an eating and exercise plan that works for you, and your body will adjust to find its ideal weight all on its own. Bodies are made kinda perfect like that.
-If and when you do weigh yourself, choose good times to do it. Usually for me, it's in the morning sometime mid-week. I know I'll get a pretty consistent number every few weeks that won't completely freak me out.
-Stay hydrated and eat your fruits and veggies. Vegetables are heavy. Water is heavy. Neither of those two things will make you gain actual weight.
-Avoid letting yourself get too hungry or too full. I try really hard to stay even keeled throughout the day and never over or under eat.
-Most of all, let it go. Just let it go. The number on the scale no longer determines what kind of day I have and I am so thankful to be free of that!
You're gorgeous. XOXO